My class had a BBQ gathering.
I don't have all the photos with me so wait patiently alrights!
I will gather the photos before posting up.



I'm in a sick mood.
I don't know whats wrong with me!!
First of all, I don't even know how to define this ">
Perhaps you don't understand my language.
It's okay.
Cause I don't even understand myself.

I appeared to be happy.
Cause, I just tried to laugh it off.
Almost at everything.
Find answers to reply every questions.
Carry a smile, perhaps most of the time.

But there's something extraordinarily weird in me that I'm feeling.
Some kind of sadness, plus tension.
You get it?
I search myself inside to find what's causing it.
Sadly, I haven't got the answer.

School? Friends? Band? Family? Or is it just me?

Polytechnic is quite miserable for me now.
I don't know what I've become.
I've changed, or at least that's what I felt.

Polytechnic it's like.
Everyone is a picture in my head.
This person is = A
This person is = B

I don't have any strong feelings that I feel with them.
Like a connection.
It's gone.
It just makes me want to cry that, everything is changing.
Although I can't really notice the change, cause it's like happening everyday.
Bit by bit.

And now I feel I'm losing all my secondary mates.
People that I feel strong connection with.
Why has it all gone like that.

I find myself losing temper easily.
I hated people easily.
I'm criticising.
I'm angry.
I'm like a hateful person!

I hated it.
Being a hateful person is much torturing.

I just hope I can change myself totally.
Erase everything that I've done.
I just have one life.
I want to make it right.

I'll try.
Everyday.
It's a beginning...