heart.
Name is Michelle
18 on '08
Studying in S'pore Polytechnic
Wishing my life would be like an interesting movie
Comedies always make me happy
Love my friends who stood by me
Family that always got my back
Music makes my world colourful
Dating with MND, We the kings
Thursday, May 31, 2007!
HandWritten on; 8:46 AM
I am so high.
I can hear heaven
I am so high.
I can hear heaven.
Oh but heaven, no heaven dont hear me.
And they say that a hero can save us.
Im not gonna stand here and wait.
I'll hold onto the wings of the eagles.
Watch as we all fly away.
Someone told me love will ALL save us.
But how can that be, look what love gave us.
A world full of killing, and blood-spilling
That world never came.
And they say that a hero can save us.
Im not gonna stand here and wait.
I'll hold onto the wings of the eagles.
Watch as we all fly away.
Now that the world isnt ending, its love that Im sending to you.
It isnt the love of a hero, and thats why I fear it wont do.
And they say that a hero can save us.
Im not gonna stand here and wait.
I'll hold onto the wings of the eagles.
Watch as we all fly away.And they're watching us (Watching Us)
And they're watching us (Watching Us)
As we all fly away.yeah!(3x)
Love the song, love the lyrics.
Nickleback,Hero
Wednesday, May 30, 2007!
HandWritten on; 6:53 AM
Damn it, it is
certainly not a good day for me today.
Recalling what happened just now, 9.53pm I received phone calls from many.
One asking if we can all go out and I don't work tomorrow.
Another telling me that no one is able to replace me tomorrow and complaints from my guy manager.
Third call is a confirmation from me if I'm able to work tomorrow.
Excuse me Mr manager. What complains do you have? You know what? I don't even want to hear your complaints because I
QUIT. It may sound childish and this phrase is usually heard from TV drama series. I had enough of you
whining. This is
YOUR job. To arrange the schedule. Why are you complaining to us? Complain to yourself because what you worked for is what you gained. This is how much you studied and this is the job you get. If everyone is like you blaming others how difficult their job is wouldn't it be a joke?
Now, it's just people giving away their shifts to others. What is so troublesome about that? You mean you can't even handle such simple situations? Moreover we have school and you are against us instead of understanding us so what's the use of us understanding you? The way people treat you is a good reflection on how you treat people. Go look into the mirror.
Putting this aside.
Half of my day is wasted in polyclinic. I went there with a motive to take MC but I'm really uneasy too. I haven't do my
Chinese project and why? I don't even know how to start.
My parents as usual nag by my ear once they reach home. Why don't I see children nagging at their parents? I think it helps letting parents know how we feel.
They nag and nag and nag..
Where did they get their energy from after work? Red bull?
LOL.
I am beginning to hate this world besides my life. Scanning through the
Internet reading news makes me feel worst about this world.
OK, I'm feeling better now. Back to my project..
Tuesday, May 29, 2007!
HandWritten on; 7:38 AM
Look at the depressing state you left me in. I am constantly worrying for you because anything can happen anytime and anywhere. My eyes are feeling swollen from the constant crying almost everyday. I can smile for a second and cry in another. My smile can never be whole again. Please pull yourself up for the sake of me.
The worst day for me would be 28th May 2007. I woke up in the morning by a call with the experience of something different from usual. It made me cry like mad on the bed. Every moment in the house make me think a lot and tears just keep falling from my eyes. Till I met you I was speechless. My mouth just shut close. I don't dare to look at you fear of seeing images that might come true.
The day at my house was like hell. I never felt that bad before. How much I wanted to speak to you and tell you that I love you too but I couldn't. You just made me cry and cry again. I tried to think positively at times but it was no use. Until you left my house with a smile going into the lift, I cried out like fucking hard. I cried till I felt numb. The pain was numb in me now.
Now, it's alright since everything is almost settled but the pain is still in me.
A scar can never be erased and what trauma I had in that morning I can never forget.
Saturday, May 26, 2007!
HandWritten on; 8:09 AM
Started the day with work at PM. It was tiring but fun because I was working with
Jie Lun, Mira the very cute manager and Ah
kok the playful guy who likes throwing pasta at me. They make my day even brighter on a tiring day of work :)
I was late for 5 minutes for work because of
Jie lun lah. She took so long to come. Than I lost my badge for work. What luck. I had chicken
sausage today for lunch at work and damn it. They added
chili to my food. The food was great but I did not had any good
appetite. I sat in front of Ah
kok and he told me that it was his last day working. I was so shocked but it ended as a joke. What joke dude. It's not funny
loh! Than Desmond came along and Ah
kok was telling him like, "Come here! Sit here
lah!" Pointing towards the seat beside me. He was playing around. Desmond looked
hesitant and reluctantly sat beside me. I tried to act as normal not to create any awkwardness. In the middle of a conversation between me and Ah
kok, Desmond said I was very Ah Lian(gangster for girls) but hey, was I? I just said something like, " Why? Cannot ah?".
This is such a problem with some guys who always have this mindset that girls are always supposed to act in demure and talk gently. This is the 21st century! Girls does not have to follow such an image of what a girl should be like.
Not long after,my mood changed when we were "lectured" by our guy manager for working too little days and the both of us (
jielun and me) putting the same days for work. The problem is do you think we wanted to put such little days?? We have school! Our school ends around 4 plus everyday. In which,
Wednesday and
Friday we released early but every
Wednesday we have
CCA which means one early release day for us but FRIDAY is like the last day of the week and we are so tired but usually we still sacrifice
Friday for work. Reasons why we do not have time for weekends is we are too tired after the 5 days of school, we have work to do like assignments,projects and tests and we have to spend time for friends and family!
My manager was saying, " Do you know I'm thinking whether I should sack you all or let both of you stay?!"
I was thinking, " You should let us stay and we will quit by
our self so that the $30 we deposited on the first day of work will not be confiscated!"
I have a friend in secondary working there and she is working more days compared to us but can you compare that she is in secondary school. She gets to release from school earlier compared to us! How fair is that?
Putting this aside it's my Dad's birthday today!
Happy Birthday to Daddy!We gave him this handphone strap with the word"dad" on it put on shiny black leather with diamonds at both sides and a cake pendent at the end. We also made this big board of words written on it. We went to Seoul Garden today for dinner and wanted to spend the night in Lot 1
Kbox but the
car park was full! Damn, completely dampen my spirits.
Anyways, the night was spent at home
watching TV and now playing my laptop. I have not done my
Chinese project and the date due is next week. Sighs. Let's see how it all goes.
Sunday, May 20, 2007!
HandWritten on; 12:51 AM
I've like so many homeworks to do and much to revise on but I'm still not doing it.
Guess I'm too tired and everything. I DO NOT look forward to going to school tomorrow.
The beginning of the new week is like the beginning of a disaster.
Friday when my friends and I was walking to the interchange there was a dead rat on the ground. Quite big in size and the tail was so long! There was like bugs on the tail eating on the dead rat that is decomposing.
Everone freaked out when they saw it.Cindy who is Jielun's friend even thought it was a lizard from far. I have the picture but I'll post it up later!
Wednesday, May 16, 2007!
HandWritten on; 8:11 AM
Sad to say there's this tragic news happened on mother's day and I believed most of us heard about this news. Happened in Japan. Actually I wrote part of the story but I deleted it.
I find this news very disturbing so let's not talk about it anymore.
The great news is:
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY to all noble mothers all around the world.
The day to say thanks to our mother for all the things she had done for us.
Well, on this special day we had a celebration at Lot 1 in Pizza Hut.
In the noon, my sister and me present our gifts to our mother. 2 presents specially picked by me. A lovely pink mug with the words, " Mommy, I love you!" printed on it and a pink apron as she always wanted one.
*Look at the picture! Isn't she cute? My mummy wearing the apron with the mug in her hand!
My sister and I started playing with the apron.
She is imitating the statue in New york. How similar is it? 88% for me!
This is the cute me trying on the apron and it's time for a pose!
What pose is this? I don't know? I just came up with it! Thailand kind of dancing I think?
In the noon, we went out as my daddy wanted to run some errands. I wore my new orange shirt out that day. Took pictures again of me in orange with sister in car.
Than Maureen saw this "garden" and wanted to picture with it. So funny because we took it in public and everyone looked at us as if we were tourists.
They must be thinking, " It must be the first time they saw plants! "
It's PARTY TIME!We dolled our self up and head to Lot 1 to have our dinner. Although it's not some fancy restaurant and the place is not glamorous but we enjoyed our self.
Taken in the car. Yes, Yes I know how blur it is. Well, i took it using my handphone and my camera at my handphone is not some 3 mega pixel you know! :)
The restaurant was packed! Just as we expected. We put our names down under the waiting list. It was quite a long wait and we were starving and our Dad brought us to the food court to have roti prata. Which is very weird because it's like having roti prata for mother's day? How special.
Don't look at me like that! I know, I know! This is not roti prata but we had this before the roti prata came. :)
Ya Ya, I know how vain we were but it's MOTHER'S Day!
Both of us took pictures with our pretty Ma Ma at the where
BINGO. At the food court T.T
Continuing with my story, you should know how the story ends. We got our place in Pizza Hut and ate a lot! Went home full and smiles. I like such occasions!
16 MAY.
I am stress! Because I'm having my 2.4km rum tomorrow! How stupid am I to actually feel stress of something I haven't tried.
I know how badly I'm going to do. This might not be the result yet! I haven't give up :)
All the best for my run tomorrow.
To add on the pressure, GP exam is on the Friday and it's like what? So near?
Gosh, I better study.
Saturday, May 05, 2007!
HandWritten on; 9:41 AM
9 am : Me,Jielun,Eunice and Nadia supposed to meet at the Jurong National Library
I was late so bought some sweets and tibits for them. Surprisingly, Eunice was even later than us. We went to the library to get our MOB project done. So sorry Nadia! She did most of the stuff so was so sorry about it.
I brought my laptop with me today and showed Eunice DBSK's Rising sun MV. She keep mummbling beside me saying how handsome Jae Joong was. Well, but of course! ^^
So funny. I kept taking pictures of Nadia with my laptop's webcam with Nadia unaware of it. LOLS. She kept bugging me to delete the photos.
I hope I'm able to finish the script of our project's skid and do my homework and study for tests and revise and...
Bla bla bla. There's lot more to do.
12.30pm
Jielun and me went to the Jurong MRT to meet two little 'M', Ming lee and Mei hui.
We than headed to bugis. The bag was so heavy with my laptop in it. My shoulder was about to break but thanks to my kind friends it wasn't aching as much. They took turns to carry it for me. :)
We ate at Mos Burger. Me and MingLee ordered Mos Cheese burger. It was difficult for me to eat. Why? Because of the dripping sauces soaking the paper wrapping the burger. Ming Lee said something to me which I find it quite weird. She said a Father was queing with two kids. A small girl asked a lot of questions such as, " Daddy, can I buy a milkshake?" and her Dad replied, " None of your business". No matter what his little girl asked her Dad replied with the same answer. Hmmm...
We also saw this very cute spongey thingy walking around advertising that Japanese ice-cream.
Than Ming lee and Mei hui took a photo with it. I was wondering how the person in that soft thing look through. Finally we figured out that the mouth had very small holes. Some irritating people went over and started hitting it from the back. Which was a very inconsiderate act to me.
We shopped around bugis junction and went into an addidas shop and immediately I set my eyes on the white,grey and pink pair of shoes. WOSH! Swept me away. I just like it although it looked simple but it just got the feel~ . WAHAHA.
Than we went to bugis street and Mei hui was looking for T-shirts. I could see how different our tastes were but we gave in to our differences.
Mei hui - Likes cute prints on the T-shirt
Ming Lee- Prefers simple and nice T-shirt
Michelle (me)- Would prefer outstanding prints or design of T-shirts
Jielun- Likes T-shirts that are unique and nice shade of colour.
We went to a shop and finally we got to spend money on T-shirts. HA! Ming Lee,Mei hui and I bought a T-shirt. I bought a orange shirt with words printed on it. In a while Ming lee and Mei hui have to leave for work. Leaving me and Jie Lun to shop around. So tired.
We went to causeway as Jie Lun wanted to collect her handphone but it was not ready.
Saw her basketball friends there but we didn't went over to talk because we were rushing in time. Jielun than contacted them through handphone. I was left there like loner. Honestly,maybe I'm too sensitive or something but I kept feeling this all the time. Am I sufferring from depression?
Tuesday, May 01, 2007!
HandWritten on; 9:03 AM
Sighs*
Winson is leaving PM.
Went to see him on his last day of work.
Brought him a card with a sticker that is able to paste on his handphone.
It's a picture of a X and skull head.
All the best Winson!
Continue your making of music.
I'll watch your performance one day.
MISS YOU!
!
HandWritten on; 7:54 AM
My handphone is back! The speaker is working well! Great! I don't have to pay for the repairs as my phone is on warranty and stupid because the lady took my papers for purchasing of the handphone. Damn.
Went to causeway point with Jie Lun and bought converse shoes. Stupidly, I bought a white pair as my feet was too small and there's no more size for any other shoes. Right... Maybe I can design it. HEHE.
Bought a hairband which is green,white and black in mixture of colours. Also bought a diamond hairpin. =) But I don't know why I've got this feeling that material things does not make me feel whole and happy. Sighs.
I just don't get it. Why people are studying? For what?? Maybe I'll understand it when I'm older.
Anyway the outing today was really fun.
When I reached home my aunty and uncle was at home. Eating steamboat. They brought a lady along. She was a korean. So cool ya? They keep forcing me to speak to her in korean and seriously I don't know how lar. The lady was so nice. She even offered to wash the dishes after dinner and taught us a little about korean language and culture.
Night time now and I'm brooding over going to school tomorrow in around 6 hours time I have to wake up for school. Why does teenagers have to brood over such matters or only I in the whole wide world is brooding over trival matters.
Well, if it's not for others I'm not going to school. Living in this world, it's not just about me,me and me.
Taken in the car. Yes, Yes I know how blur it is. Well, i took it using my handphone and my camera at my handphone is not some 3 mega pixel you know! :)
