My class had a BBQ gathering.
I don't have all the photos with me so wait patiently alrights!
I will gather the photos before posting up.



I'm in a sick mood.
I don't know whats wrong with me!!
First of all, I don't even know how to define this ">
Perhaps you don't understand my language.
It's okay.
Cause I don't even understand myself.

I appeared to be happy.
Cause, I just tried to laugh it off.
Almost at everything.
Find answers to reply every questions.
Carry a smile, perhaps most of the time.

But there's something extraordinarily weird in me that I'm feeling.
Some kind of sadness, plus tension.
You get it?
I search myself inside to find what's causing it.
Sadly, I haven't got the answer.

School? Friends? Band? Family? Or is it just me?

Polytechnic is quite miserable for me now.
I don't know what I've become.
I've changed, or at least that's what I felt.

Polytechnic it's like.
Everyone is a picture in my head.
This person is = A
This person is = B

I don't have any strong feelings that I feel with them.
Like a connection.
It's gone.
It just makes me want to cry that, everything is changing.
Although I can't really notice the change, cause it's like happening everyday.
Bit by bit.

And now I feel I'm losing all my secondary mates.
People that I feel strong connection with.
Why has it all gone like that.

I find myself losing temper easily.
I hated people easily.
I'm criticising.
I'm angry.
I'm like a hateful person!

I hated it.
Being a hateful person is much torturing.

I just hope I can change myself totally.
Erase everything that I've done.
I just have one life.
I want to make it right.

I'll try.
Everyday.
It's a beginning...

Fuck lah!
FUCK LAH!
I am damn freaking pissed off right now.
Bloody hell.
Go to hell laptop.

This is like the third time it's happening to me.
I don't know why okay!
Probably is cause of the updates that caused the damage.
FUCK LAH.
I can't log into XP at all.
Why must we have XP and Vista sia!
It's like stupid lah!
Vista is the newer version so why so outdated!!????

And now! For the third time, I can't go into XP.
I can't do my assignments.
EVERYTHING inside will be DELETED.
GONE!
ALL MY HOMEWORK.
FUCK.
I have to RECLONE the whole laptop again like the other time.

And I have to book like schedule with some IT people.
Sit there for like HOURS to get it done.
AFTER SCHOOL.
Who won't feel pissed off man.

And I have my MAYA project to be done.
FUCK LAH OKAY.
I'm pissed off so who cares if my language is full of vulgar.
I'm so freaking pissed off with everything now.

I feel like dying okay.
I don't want to bother about this STUPID technical thing.
WASTE OF MY TIME.

I'm like angry, irritated.
Crying as well.
What you want me to feel!?!

Fuck day

I had a bad day. Do you believe it?
I thought it was a good day at first.
Till night falls, I came to realise it was not such a good day afterall.
Give me a toy to hit.
To release my anger and vent my frustrations on.
What's with me?
I'm kinda like getting angry with everyone.
Except my parents?
It's like everyone's my enemy, all of a sudden.
Perhaps it's just the mood swings.
Hope it goes away sooooon.
Or maybe I'm sufferring from bipolar...
Well, I suspect I am.


Playing the guitar a while ago.
My fingers apparently still hurts.
But weirdly, that felt great.
At least I know there's like effort put in.
It's going to get better anyway.


Stomach pain as usual.
It's like my forever illness.
Overall, today is just a sucky day for me.
I feel like skipping school tomorrow.
Just realise that Tan chee siong says that.

" We are going to touch on a new topic tomorrow".

Damn it.

You know the times where you just can't feel a single tinge of joy?
That's how I'm feeling right now.
Kinda mixed feelings.
A little sad, add a little anger, a little annoyed and irritated.
You may ask why I'm feeling this way.
But it's best I keep it to myself.
Some things are just not meant to be said.

I was like browsing around.
And I saw this dumb faces. =X
I guess that made me felt a little... funny?
Just a little. Like 1 %?












okay, so maybe 2%..
10 perfect shots in total!
Taken when we webcam.
Silly goose(nani).

Woosshh!

Super happy today.

Went shopping with mummy at far east.

Saw a skirt I liked a lot.

It's so simple lah.

Black with some flower patterns.

No pockets. No zips.

Price: $32.90

WTF!!!

Then clever,adorable,pretty,loving mummy spotted the same skirt (100%) just right beside the shop! It's like way below so it's not noticable. Damn, it's selling for ........

Photos and more photos!

Class went for voluntary work to get our C.I.P hours done.
At M.I.N.D.S to help clean up the stuff there.
Photos have arrived!!
:D:D

It's cleaning time!!

Mai and Nat



There is a boy named Daris

ZOOOMM!!


Eh eh! Look here!


The tallest guy is class, Leslie.


Jun hao (how) are you?

Why are all of them looking at Junhao?
Probably he just said something like, " Ee! Why my towel so wet"


Oldest brother in class, Zhi Kai!


Pity michelle washing towels.
Pity cinderella sweeping the floor. (weeloon in white)



Wash wash wash!

Why are you watching me washing towels?




Clean toilets!


Cleaning the dirty laundry room.

Jia yi and Nat

Mai and my back

The fat girl in green

Jun Hao, Daris and crap guy. (kelvin)


Family photo. Hahaha.

" This is why I'm hot!"




Ended the day well. :) Phew!

Recently Ivan showed me some real shit.
This is so cool!
Wanna share with y'all!


This is just one of their videos that I personally liked.
Flight of the conchords people.
Enjoy!

Today I got my presentation done.
I'm in deep shit I guessed?
It was damn nerve racking.
My team members were so nervous as well.
Especially Kelvin. Seemed extra stress.

Overall, we all did well. Good job guys!
Only that Kel's slides were a little too much.
Time was running out.
My part of the presentation performed worst I guessed.
I remember turning to see my team mates.
They were all looking at me.
I just somehow got this feeling they were cheering on for me?
It made me feel better in some way.

I'm really lagging behind others in studies.
I just gotta buck up.
It's hard. I'm not a "study bread".

Anyway study bread was a name Jean gave to someone.
Hahaha.
I'm just a slacking potato.
Don't expect much from me okay!
I need time to rest.
I just need time to do stuff I like.
Entertainment is a big thing in my life.
If I don't have it, it's like I'm wasting my life!

After school, I head to Jurong point.
To meet my best buddies.
Had piano lesson at my teacher's house.
I can felt the sharp pain on my shoulder while I play the piano.
As the laptop was damn heavy today.
It felt as if the big load was still on me.

Afterwards, we had dinner.
Had a great time today :)

Tomorrow I have Java test.
I'm still not working on it!
I'm so tired!
I wish I am a robot...