Look at the depressing state you left me in. I am constantly worrying for you because anything can happen anytime and anywhere. My eyes are feeling swollen from the constant crying almost everyday. I can smile for a second and cry in another. My smile can never be whole again. Please pull yourself up for the sake of me.

The worst day for me would be 28th May 2007. I woke up in the morning by a call with the experience of something different from usual. It made me cry like mad on the bed. Every moment in the house make me think a lot and tears just keep falling from my eyes. Till I met you I was speechless. My mouth just shut close. I don't dare to look at you fear of seeing images that might come true.

The day at my house was like hell. I never felt that bad before. How much I wanted to speak to you and tell you that I love you too but I couldn't. You just made me cry and cry again. I tried to think positively at times but it was no use. Until you left my house with a smile going into the lift, I cried out like fucking hard. I cried till I felt numb. The pain was numb in me now.

Now, it's alright since everything is almost settled but the pain is still in me.
A scar can never be erased and what trauma I had in that morning I can never forget.